Thoughts...

I`m gonna write this in english coz i`m not in the mood of being a romanian girl today. I feel like expressing myself in this language that i like so much and try to control it so well. Anywayz today I miss my old self. The girl that never gave a damn about anything. Dind`t fall for guyz and suffer like a slave. Dind`t care if it`s day or night, just wanted to have fun. I miss that girl so, so much! I feel like escaping from this weird girly girl costume that I wear. I`m cought between the lady and the boy in me. I`m like wanna dress cool and wear high heels and be a girl. But on the other side I wanna be the old me that I was. Laugh about anything and be happy all the time and surrounded by friends. I`m not complaining. I`ve got the best friends that anybody could wish for. And as I try to help my adorable, so-much-loved friend in her problems, that`s how my friend tryes to help me. He is decided to fight with me for everything. I know him like for a couple of days but he knows me like he`s my brother. He changed my points of view about life, about everything. And I dunno why but for some reason he makes me talk in english lol. That`s the funny part. I dunno why the fuck I keep talkin english when it comes to him. I really love him. And not in the "be together" way. In the friendly way. I feel very lucky that I`ve got him as a friend. He helped me alot. I can`t wait to see him. And about myself! Well I`ll try to combine the old me and the new me, being a crazy girl in a new shape.